Jess has a condition that is not curable but treatable. It is not life threatening and I am very grateful.
It took 2 and a half years to find out what is wrong with her.
It is getting better but we still get episodes like last week when I put her on the wrong diet and her body went into shock.
I remind myself that there are Moms out there that have to deal with their children having brutal terminal illnesses and I should be thankful.
I know it is getting better, I know we are fortunate to know what is wrong and to be able to treat it.
BUT
I am angry.
Angry with myself for falling apart when she has a bad spell.
Angry with the pain she has to go through.
Angry with the kids at her school who tease her for her many absences.
Angry with teachers who don't understand.
Angry that I have to force her to go to school when she is not feeling well.
Angry with myself for being so emotional.
I tried to comment yesterday. You HAVE to get angry sometimes. You have every reason too. Hope you find calm soon xx
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ReplyDeleteOh Vivian, I am so sorry to hear this. I don't see any way to mitigate too much of that anger. I'm angry with you for all the reasons you list. I think your anger will change as acceptance and action prevail. I'm glad Jess has you. Wishing you all the best!
ReplyDeleteThanks Steph, once Jess was diagnosed correctly my expectation was that she would be all better overnight. I am positive that with the new treatment she is going to be fine.
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