Walking into a room full of people I don't know alone, is one of the things I least like to do.
It would be fine if I kept quiet, but when I am nervous I babble and babble.
A little voice in my head is saying:
"SHUT UP, PLEASE JUST SHUT UP"
In the same way the moth is drawn to the flame. I cannot shut myself up.
I keep talking and talking.
After the second sentence I have run out of sane and comprehend-able things to say so I start talking gibberish.
By this time whomever I am talking to is looking very nervous.
I know what this person thinks by now:
"What is this crazy lady saying? Is she dangerous?"
Still I talk.
I have been introduced to some great people over the years. I have often thought:
"Wow, we have so much in common, perhaps we can be friends."
Then it hits me that I am alone amoungst people I barely know and the nerves set in and the talking starts.
While the idiot me is blabbering away, I am having the following conversation in my head,
Reasonable in my head me:
"You know you are talking yourself out of any possible friendship with this person right?"
Blabbering idiot me:
"And then my gynaecologist said........." Yip, no TMI for blabbering idiot me, I will continue to blabber on every non PC topic I can come up with.
This should be my theme song when I meet new people: