When I am depressed:
- everything seems dimmer, it's as if the colour has been removed.
- I have a physical ache around my heart, I am tearful
- When my family are laughing and joking I battle to feel the fun.
- I don't want to do anything.
Winter aggravates my depression, May to August are difficult months from me. I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder.
I think it is psychologically affected by the fact that 14 years ago I moved to Johannesburg in the middle of winter from a very hot climate. I went through the most traumatic experience of my life. I associate winter in Johannesburg with this trauma. It also does not help that Johannesburg is very bleak in the winter. Johannesburg does not get rain in winter and there is a lot of frost. Below is a willow tree that we could see from the house we used to live in. See the contrast between summer and winter.
|Michael and I were married under this tree|
I am going through a bad spell at the moment.
When I am going through these spells I think of the song, "Aint no sunshine when she's gone away"
A part of me is gone away. Which version do you like the most Bill Withers or Lenny Kravitz? I like both equally Lenny has the plus of being super smexy.