Jess has a condition that is not curable but treatable. It is not life threatening and I am very grateful.
It took 2 and a half years to find out what is wrong with her.
It is getting better but we still get episodes like last week when I put her on the wrong diet and her body went into shock.
I remind myself that there are Moms out there that have to deal with their children having brutal terminal illnesses and I should be thankful.
I know it is getting better, I know we are fortunate to know what is wrong and to be able to treat it.
I am angry.
Angry with myself for falling apart when she has a bad spell.
Angry with the pain she has to go through.
Angry with the kids at her school who tease her for her many absences.
Angry with teachers who don't understand.
Angry that I have to force her to go to school when she is not feeling well.
Angry with myself for being so emotional.